Stupid Heart

I'm already miles away from Davao but I still can't seem to move on.It's been months since we bid goodbyes but somehow his memory still haunts me.I thought moving away would do me good since I would no longer see him anymore and there would be no one to remind me of him.It was so clear to me that he was happy with his new found girl and that I was no different, no more special like before.There was no reason for him to want me now.But I guess,I was wrong.I may have left physically,but my heart still remained with him.I was forbidden to remember yet too terrified to forget.I wondered how long this would last.I can't stand the pain of loving him and hating him as well.He is nothing like any man I've known: selfish,egoistic, and most of all, an ULTIMATE HEARTBREAKER!!!! I hate him, I hate him,I hate him..The line I keep on telling to my friends.But God knows I didn't mean what I've said because until now,at this very point,I'm still truly,madly,deeply in love with him...Pathetic as it may sound,but that is the truth..I love him and I will always love him...Like what I usually say, "Bebe koh,I love you 24ever.."
I miss you so much Ken..I miss US...