Stupid Heart

I'm already miles away from Davao but I still can't seem to move on.It's been months since we bid goodbyes but somehow his memory still haunts me.I thought moving away would do me good since I would no longer see him anymore and there would be no one to remind me of him.It was so clear to me that he was happy with his new found girl and that I was no different, no more special like before.There was no reason for him to want me now.But I guess,I was wrong.I may have left physically,but my heart still remained with him.I was forbidden to remember yet too terrified to forget.I wondered how long this would last.I can't stand the pain of loving him and hating him as well.He is nothing like any man I've known: selfish,egoistic, and most of all, an ULTIMATE HEARTBREAKER!!!! I hate him, I hate him,I hate him..The line I keep on telling to my friends.But God knows I didn't mean what I've said because until now,at this very point,I'm still truly,madly,deeply in love with him...Pathetic as it may sound,but that is the truth..I love him and I will always love him...Like what I usually say, "Bebe koh,I love you 24ever.."
I miss you so much Ken..I miss US...

Lots of pieces of me went missing and my heart was definitely lost,
I felt the crippling aching pain of losing someone whom I loved the most,
I wondered,how did it all end so suddenly,
'Coz until now, I can't find the strength to set him free...

I can't forget the harsh rejection and stupid lies I've heard,
I used to think I'm a princess with the best Romeo in the world,
Needless to say,I'm more of a damsel in distress,
Trying to fix a hole that was left from my chest...

All night,I water my bed with my tears,
As nightmare and enduring goodbyes filled my ears,
I've forgotten what real happiness feels like,
As I've struggled with my groanings in all my might...

I know my ego cannot take a womanizer,
But for him to come back is still my prayer,
Even if my heart is grieving after my knight and shining armour,
Silently,I still long to be with him and only him forever...

I'm not that strong as you give me credit for,
I'm still that timid girl who used to love you before,
My lying lips can speak a thousand words of blasphemy,
But I can't betray my heart's deisre of needing you so badly...

I'm here and I patiently wait for you no matter what,
Hoping that one day you'll be back and find me inside your heart,
I still believe that you and I will share a love that is everlasting,
And when that moment comes,I know I have a "happily ever after" ending...